my day was realli taxing. had loads of hw n dis darn physics surprise test. n thn she was lyk" i dun tink we'll be takin ur prelims as ur forecast results coz its too easy, i mite jux take this test". man i was like wtf la. halo lady u din even tell us we had a test comin up. n i seriously suck at physics so im definitely gonna fail. i actualli told her this. no worries i wasnt da onli one complainin! anwx lyk i predicted i failed.... like realli badly. felt so hopeless la. i mean my examx r in less thn a month. i jux hate physics! no two ways abt it. cant even bring maself ta start studyin fer it. soo much i duno.. oh well screw tt. my day gets worse k...
cme back n fast forward till dinner. n yeah lil bro was all up my ass ok. i jux felt like punchin him man. i meann arrghh! thrs soo much i can tolerate k. um nt ur blardy ply toy. i reallli blew up afta much toleration n da worst parrt. mom n freakin uncle wwere lyk lookin at me lyk it was my fault...."hes jux a small boy"... " dunno why u cant tolerate him" . it was soo f**ked up okx. i was damn pissed. din even touched ma dinna. jux went up ta ma roomn n bam... i wass soo mad. and soo upset. it was lyk everyone was against me. i felt like punchin somethin...in da end i broke down.... cldn stop cryin la... i mean it was like soo much anger n pain all goin thru at da same time... felt soo alone... memories afta memoriesjux kept floodin in....n all da painful ones.... more tears...buckets n buckets... n well in exhaustion i kinda fell aslp for lyk n hr...
woke up realisin i gt lyk 20 pgs of bio hw n wldn wanna see ma damn bio teachers agrression all out on me... surprisingly i was all concentrated.... well no one was talkin to me.. i was a ghost in da house jux wonderin arnd... finished up n da tv was taken by sum jackass...
so say this hindi mvie in ma bro's room....
"kaal ho naa ho"
translated: wad if thrs no tmw or sumth lidat...
its abt this guy who is dyin (but we r nt suppose ta knw) and he comes to this town to seek treatment n brings life n happiness to this realli scarred family ( a dad whu killed himself n a grandma whuse always up da moms neck) . eventually he falls for da gal in da house. man its soo sad , he finds out that he cant be cured n tt gal fell for him too... but whn she came up n told him.. he jux said he was already married.. gosh i cld see da hurt in his eyes.. i knw i knw its jux a mvie but sharukh khan can realli act kx... n dat min on i jux cldn stop cryin... i watched da movie b4 n knew he was gonna die so i cried even more... even b4 da endin reached... oh ya thrs this other guy (he's nt bad too) has liked her fer yrs n finally goes for her whn shes in love wif da other guy... but da other guy knwin tt he wont live ta be wif her (or see her go thru another loss,like she had soo much pain in her life)so he helped da other guy go after her knwin all da right things ta say.. finally he ( da frn) proposed n she agreed and whn evrone
was soo happy n rejoicin ... da other guy had ta put on an act as tears came down.... n yes more tearrs frm me... onli his mom cld see him pain....sigh...
anwx i cldn bear ta watch da endin.. it was late... my nose was all clogged... my eyes runnin.... i had class early... so i stopped it at da 3rd disc n went ta bed....
yeapx tts my one supa emo nite for me....
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"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."
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